This phrase just keeps echoing in my mind. This is the week I go back to work. Our life with 3 kids will look drastically different then what it has for the past 6 weeks. My thoughts and emotions are going crazy. There is a lot of fear and anxiety. I know that I need to trust in the Lord and pursue Him passionately, unfortunately right now there are moments where the fear takes over and I can't see past the circumstances. I am fearful of:
~not pursuing the Lord and thinking that I can get by on my own "strength"
~not loving my husband the way I desire to (and the way I should)
~not being a good mom
~losing friendships because I don't feel like I have a lot of extra time to spend with others
~letting my students down (as well as co-workers)
~running my body into the ground
I feel like the list could go on and on. Even with the anxiety I have about what this week might bring, there is absolutely no question that I love our little family and wouldn't change anything about our family. All three kiddos have brought so much joy to our lives. They have taught me about myself and more about God than I ever would have thought at their young ages. I am so thankful for the "extra" moments I have been able to spend with them lately. My prayer is this....that I will press in to the Lord, love Christian well, cherish my moments I have with the kids and that I will find my joy in the Lord only. So now it begins
3 comments:
Praying for you tomorrow. The Lord is sufficient. This is just a season :)
One day on, two days off ... Not a bad way to start back, right!?! Thinking of you during these transitions!
how was your first week back? thinking about you. thanks for the transparency. xoox
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