A Desire for Change

I have recently decided to begin reading a new book, Having a Mary Spirit, by Joanna Weaver. Once the decision was made to begin I felt a stirring within my soul. This stirring is hard to explain, but I knew that it was coming from the Holy Spirit. I must admit that I was a little nervous (and still am) because I have not had this feeling in awhile and it's always hard for me to have no idea what will come of it. As I sat down and begun to read it became very clear to me that through this book that the Lord would bring conviction, probably some frustration with myself, and most encouraging a renewed desire to be changed by the Lord.

As I read tonight, here is what brought much conviction: I don't want to be the "old" Martha. Let me explain what I mean by the "old" Martha: the Martha that Jesus had to rebuke her for her busyness. To put it simply (paraphrasing from the book) Jesus didn't want her to be so caught up in serving Him that she would completely miss out on the intimacy with Him. So this is the Martha that I don't want to be - the Martha who loved the Lord but just couldn't be bothered to actually listen to Him.


So here begins a new journey for me. May my heart and spirit be transformed to where I have a deeper intimacy with our Savior that will display His glory.